I’ve blogged several times about straight reporter Ted Cox and his undercover investigation of the “ex-gay” industry. Today Cox writes us to let us know that his entire story has now been posted online despite the confidentiality agreement he signed with the so-called Journey Into Manhood. The article is riveting, here’s how it starts.
I don’t remember exactly when I felt his erection pressing into my back. It might have been while he whispered in my ear, “Long ago, you were the Golden Child. But, somehow, that Golden Child was hurt, and you put up a wall to protect yourself.” Or it might have been when other men in the room broke out in song:
How could anyone ever tell you[snip] In one corner of the room, a portable stereo played Shaina Noll’s song. At one point, the staff members all sang out in unison, their voices filling the high walls of the camp lodge. Somewhere in the room, a man sobbed over the sound of the music. It was the first night of “Journey into Manhood,” a 48-hour weekend retreat designed to help gay men become straight. In that room, about fifty men — some thirty “Journeyers” and fifteen staff members — sat on the carpeted floor of a ranch lodge two hours outside of Phoenix, Arizona. Most of the men, except for a few of the staff members, struggled to overcome their attraction to other men. Sometime during all that holding and touching and singing, while I was cradled in the Motorcycle position, I felt it: the unmistakable bulge pressing through his tight jeans. It was the first time in my life I had a felt another man’s erection.
That you’re anything less than beautiful?
How could anyone ever tell you
That you’re less than whole?
The article is being serialized this week at the above link, but you can read the entire thing now via this document reader.